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Life story, even though you probably don't care:
I was born with Hepatitis B in Russia. I was separated from my young mother the moment I was born and she never held me. Then I was put in the hospital for the first three months of my life as I was being cured. Then I was put in an orphanage with tons of other children who I don't remember because my under-age mother couldn't take care of me in her one-room house with a dirt floor and seven other people in it. After that, I spent three years of my life in that orphanage, never once going outside. Never going outside, that was, until my parents now came and adopted me. Then I spent my first four years in America in fear. I had never seen leaves, never seen grass, cars, trees, bugs, nothing of the sort. Then I got over it and made all the amazing friends I have now. So now I live with my loving parents and caring friends in the US of A. Although I have amazing friends and parents and living conditions, I still have my insecurities. I guess it all started in second grade when a teacher of mine treated me so badly that I wished death upon myself. Yeah.... Second grade, I was seven. So my parents sent me to therapy for attempting suicide at seven and had a talk with the principal. That teacher got fired. But that's beside the point. Ever since then I've been insecure. But it got really bad in fifth grade. It was when i started noticing my weight and my looks really. Then I started cutting myself in sixth grade. I would always wear a hoodie, you'd never see me without that thing. I cut myself all year, all summer and into seventh grade. I had a ton of cuts on my left arm from myself. I would always make up an excuse for it and people believed them. That was when I started being made fun of for being weird and asking stupid questions. They made fun of me every time I talked. So I continued to cut throughout that year and attempted suicide many many times. The only thing keeping me from doing it is all of the friends I have. How they would feel if I had killed myself. I would leave them hurt and I'm not worth their tears. So I didn't. I continued cutting through the summer. I also shut myself away that summer and people seriously forgot I had a voice in eighth grade. But I still continued cutting because of that stupid little voice in the back of my head, telling me all the things I didn't want to hear. Finally, a little over half way through that year I got tired of coming up with excuses for all the scars and cuts that would appear on my arm and I got tired of hiding them. At three in the morning, I woke my mom up and spilled everything to her. She cried and I cried and she got me help, allowing me to stay home from school that day. She found me a wonderful therapist. Now I'm a Freshman in higschool and I've been going to her ever since.
Accident Proan, FTW!
~Deviantart is my mind, anime is my sight, music is my voice, the flower that my best friend gave me is my life, poetry is my feelings, mountaindew is my fuel, hugs are my energy, my keyboard is my touch, my ipod is my heart, my pets are my hapiness, my Tsubasa art book is my soul and my friends are the reason I live. ^-^
-Check these out if you want some Lolz-
Nyan Nyan(D.Gray-Man) Skip to 30 seconds - [link]
CaramellDansen(D.Gray-Man) - [link]
Road Kemalot's song(D.Gray-Man) - [link]
CaramellDansen(Tsubasa: Reservoir Chronicle + XXXHOLIC) - [link]
Izaya Speaks the Truth(Durarara) - [link]
Cell Phone Scene(Durarara) - [link]
-That's all for now-
Songs of my lifeee:[link][link][link][link][link][link][link][link][link][link][link][link]
Fave color: White
Fave food: Cupcakes and Lays Salt and Vinegar Potato Chips.
Fave animal: Penguins :3 and Kitties ^-^ As well as dogsss. ;D
Fave drink: Mountain dew and Water, as well as Chocolate Milk
And Oh yeah.. Can't forget grape juice~!
Oh, and cherry cola~. xD Aaaand Cherry Crush and Strawberry Crush... Cherry Crush gives me inspiration. ;u;
Fave song: Complication by ROOKIEZ is PUNK'D, Antoinette Blue by Nana Kitade, Cemetary Drive by My Chemical Romance and Heaven Help Us by My Chemical Romance
Fave anime: Tsubasa: Reservoir Chroniclels/Tokyo Revelations/Spring Thunder + Hetalia: APH/World Series
Fave Plant: Dasies and Carnations
Mortal fear: Silence, the dark, spiders, bees, dentists and stink bugs. Also, not really MORTAL but bridges, tunnels, flying and walls.... yes, walls....Read this and you'll be scared to....[link]
Hobby: Writing poetry, fan fictions and other forms of literature
*My fave Quotes*
~ A best friend is a sister/brother that Destiny forgot to give you
~ If you want to FALL in love, first you have to LET GO.
~ My mother always told me that HAPINESS is the key to life. When I went to school, they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up. I wrote down, "HAPPY". They told me I didn't understand the assignment. I told them they didn't understand life.
~ If you have a problem, I thuroughly suggest you look within before you go and blame someone who's been blaming someone else their whole life.
~ God knows that even Angels fall.